Personal blog of cartoonist Hame

New Year Energy

We read that there were to be fireworks at 7PM, so we got Doug in the car and drove him to the outskirts of town. Unfortunately, there must also have been some at midnight, because when we got home (at, like, 12:20 ‘cuz we’re old and not mad about crowds), we found Doug in a total state. The poor wee creature was frantic and beside himself.

I know it sounds like a killjoy thing to say, but fireworks should really be banned. The impact of their noise on animals is nothing short of traumatic.

I worry the above might sound like performative internet gloating. Believe me, I’m far too aware of my shortcomings, or what I feel I should have accomplished by now, but I’ve been making a concerted effort to flip that around and see through a lens of gratitude, which really does change everything. I’ve been happy lately, and I think that’s a large part of it — no winter gloom this year.

The other part — which is related, and I’m still wrapping my brain around — is noticing how my brain veers toward suffering, whereas in any given moment, everything is probably going pretty well. Okay, sure, our livable habitat is falling apart, injustice, bigotry, war, inequitable wealth distribution, yadda yadda yadda, but my focusing on that accomplishes nothing and feels a bit like borrowing from other people’s bank accounts of suffering.

I don’t know how to square this dichotomy, between enjoying my personal life and still trying to do good, but I get the feeling it’s more of a “Yes, and…” than a “Yes, but…”

As far as ambitions for this year, I feel like my best opportunity is to work on establishing ongoing practices rather than concentrating on specific goals.

We’ll see. In the meantime, happy new year.

History Repeats (and So Does Dinner)

Waking, packing, and flying home the next day… it was a challenge. Nearly a week later, I’m not entirely okay. I think I barfed out my whole gut biome.

P.S. Pepto-Bismol, I’ve learned, should only be taken in emergencies, because continuing with it for days has… consequences.